Three Years Later...

So.. hello there. Remember me?  I remember you, although my actions would certainly seem to indicate otherwise. I've got so much to tell you, which only seems fitting after a 3 year silence. I recently started another blog (I'm a cheater, I know) but it is more of a business blog, and it has made me long to share personal things (anonymously) with the world once again. So, what is there for me to do other than begin again. It seems I have a knack for picking this back up for a while, and then disappearing, so here's hoping it sticks for a bit. 

Are you still there? If so, updates to come! 

*Miss Pisces*

(Just rude! lol)

Pisces -Rita

1 parts Patron Reposado

1/2parts Patron Silver

1/2 parts Hpnotiq

1/2 parts Peach Schnapps

sour, lime, splash Pineapple

shake enjoy!!

You can rim with either sugar or salt. I went for neither. hahah...

**Miss Pisces**

Calypso Punch--- Drink Recipe!!!

Calypso Punch

1 parts- Hpnotiq

1 parts- Coconut Rum

1 parts- Pineapple Vodka

1 parts- Apple Puckers

Pineapple Juice

Orange Juice

Cranberry Juice

Shake & Enjoy!!!

**Sorry about the half glass pic.. I forgot to take the pic while the glass was full! LOL**

*Miss Pisces*

The Saga of Mr. Sensitive...Part 2 (Summer Lovin..)

Please forgive me for the delay in posting part 2 my friends... 

So where did I leave off?? Ah yes.. the warning phone call after our first hook up.. 

Okay, so despite what dear Mr. Sensitive said about it not turning into anything, the next weekend he was back in my town for.. some reason I can't remember. Whatever his initial plans were though, he changed them and came to work with me that night.  I was bartending at a club about 35mins away and I guess he just couldn't bare to leave me.. hahaha.. He spent the night that night and then ended up staying at my house for a majority of the next day until I had to go to a study group. Needless to say, he was pretty smitten by the end of the weekend. I was still... hesitant for lack of a better word.  

The next weekend was graduation and both me and his BFF were graduating so I knew he was gonna be in town, but he was still trying to act like maybe he wasn't. Idk.. so he came up that Friday night and met up with me and my friends downtown (I think thats how it went.. I was pretty smashed haha!) and then came back to my house.. surprise surprise! It was actually a really good thing he did, because I might've missed my graduation otherwise! lol. Anywho.. he was all sentimental when I left blah blah..it was kind of cute.. but still I wasn't 100% there yet. Then came graduation... had a bit of a falling out right before graduation with two of my close friends and it pretty much ruined my whole day..womp womp.. called Mr. S to talk about it and he came right over to the house... we talked and laughed and he cheered me up some.. but what pushed me to the 100% point with him was the following: I had my grad party to go to at home (1hr away) and he had his BFF's grad party to go to in his hometown that afternoon.. but when he saw how upset I was about the incident at graduation he told me that if I didn't want to go home he would just stay there with me instead of going to his friend's party.. it may not sound like much, but if you knew him, you'd know that was a lot.. so then I became smitten right along with him..

So I ended up going home.. had fun with the fam.. got drunk again and passed out lol.. enjoyed Mother's Day w/my mom and then went back to school.. if I got back to my house at 5:30.. he was there by 7 (he had gone back to his home also so.. yeah he came back).  He skipped work the next day and hung out with me.. and it was like that most of the summer. He came down on weekends.. in the middle of the week, whenever he wanted to see me basically. Sometimes he called out of work, and sometimes he would just wake up extra early to be at work. We had fun.. we  genuinely enjoyed being around each other... it was almost perfect... 

Now I need to point out that from the beginning we both had intentions of moving out of state at the end of the summer. Me to Boston and him to California. So I was never in the dark about his plans or anything like that. I will say that I had a little fantasy that maybe he would want to stay because of me.. but in time I learned that was never an option even if he had thought about it.  Okay now back to the story..

Sometime in July he took a trip to California. I didn't really think much of it at first because I knew he had some friends out there. Then, once he was there he didn't call, text, or answer the phone. I was more than a little perturbed. He was gone for maybe 5 days.. and when he got back his explanation was that he went into total vacation mode and wasn't taking calls or anything. I wasn't buying it, but I couldn't make a big deal of it since we weren't exactly a couple or anything. Few days went by and I just let it ride because he went right back to being his old self again. Then I went up to NY for a weekend to visit my dad and we talked maybe once. I called him when I got back and he was at work so we chatted briefly. About an hour later there was a knock on my door.. he drove down since he got off of work early!! It was a very sweet surprise although I was a little annoyed because my house was a mess! I had to move out of my place in a couple weeks b/c my lease was ending so we made the most of those few weeks.. I had gotten a job in the city and was commuting so we both would wake up early and leave for work and he would come back at night.. once again things were on the up & up. Moving weekend came and at first he seemed like he wasn't going to come through at all.. but there he was Friday night. We went out, had fun came home did minimal packing lol... The next morning my mom came to take some stuff so he helped us move stuff (including my bed... womp womp). He was supposed to leave Saturday afternoon, but he stayed and slept on the floor with me that night. Sunday we said our goodbyes.. leaving things kind of uncertain.. because neither one of us knew how things would turn out after that point. I was going to live with my grandmother for the time being.. and he was at his mom's house for the interim before he moved..

And I think that's where I'm going to leave off for today.. the next part is gonna be a little hard for me to write about because its where the heartbreak comes in.. sorry guys!! I promise I will post it sooner than I did this one!!

As always, if you want to get in touch with me -->drop me a line here itsmisspisces@gmail.com <---

Tata,

*Miss Pisces*

Started drinking again...

Strawberry-pineapple-banana smoothie... the alcoholics version

Put in blender....

many parts... Pineapple Rum

some parts... Creme de Banana

half part... Jamaican Rum

more parts... Strawberry Dacquiri mixer

LOTS of ICE

BLENDDDDD

Enjoy!! (yours will actually be reddish/pink though..not yellow!!)

If you try this and enjoy.. drop me a line here... happy drinking my friends

apologies

Sorry to leave you all hanging on the Mr. Sensitive saga... the sickness has taken over me... on and off fevers.. semi potential for strep.. no sore throat yet but.. it feels so close. lol.. anywho, hoping to be back in top shape or ANY shape better than my current one.. soooon.. in the meantime.. Do any of you guys have a "saga-esque" relationship story?? Share it here... OR send me an email itsmisspisces@gmail.com

Back to the bed now...Tata!

**Miss Pisces**

The Saga of Mr. Sensitive...Part 1

We met at the beginning of my freshman year of college at a mutual friend's house party. Our mutual friend is actually his BFF.  I pretty much had a crush on him from that day, but he went to a school about 4 hours away and was also like 2 years ahead of me in school.  We'd see each other every now and again when he would come up and we were fairly friendly to each other, but I really don't think he noticed me that much outside of being a younger friend of a friend. Over the 4 years we became friendlier, exchanging numbers and chatting on occasion.  I always crushed on him, but with him being so far away I had other male interests at school ;-). We always flirted a little but nothing too major.  Then comes my senior year.  He's now living back in his hometown which was about 2 hours from my school.  One random weekend a month before graduation he comes in town and hits me up.  I actually had some time so I met him and some of our friends at a bar downtown.  As we were catching up something kind of changed between us and we clicked in a totally different way than before.  There was a party at another bar later that night so we agreed to meet up again there. 

At the next party we did some major flirting and as the night went on he couldn't keep his hands off me.. not that I could blame him, I looked pretty damn hot that night. We were quite drunk by the end of the night and I ended up going home with him.. (such a little fast tail I know).. now mind you we have never even so much as kissed prior to this night. BTW-he is a great kisser!!

So fast forward to a couple days later.. I'm on my way back to school from visiting my mom and we're talking.. I'm a little foggy on the exact words of the hour long conversation (this was 3 years ago) but the basic gist was this: him: "I had such a great time the other night... I never thought you liked me in that way after all this time... I really enjoyed seeing you... but I don't want you to think that this may turn into something more like we are about to start talking [slang for casually dating/hooking up]." me:"I had fun too (making out? yes. other stuff? a little lack luster).. yeah u never asked, I didn't think you like me either... umm yeah I didn't."  I literally almost started laughing in his face...well his ear, but you know what I mean. 

Looking back, its funny that he actually initiated that conversation considering that all his actions afterward completely contradicted that very statement.  After that weekend, I think I saw him almost every weekend for the rest of the summer, if not more. But, the romance and heartbreak can wait until tomorrow.. because when I say this story is almost a saga.. I kid you not. Part 2 will be up very soon!! :-)

**Want to get in touch with me? Ask a question? share a joke? share a private comment? email me at itsmisspisces@gmail.com. I'll be sure to hit you back! **

updates and thanks...

first the thank you's to any/all of you who had well wishes and/or prayers and/or thoughts for me, my family, and my grams.  Today she went to her consultation with the neurosurgeon and she will be having surgery on Thursday (hopefully to remove it).  I've seen her twice since I got the news.  The first time I went was last Friday.  It was def. an experience for me because for 1. I am not good with sick people.  Not in a derogatory way, just in a .... that is def. one of my major limitations in life. and 2.) It really just hurt my heart to see my Grams just not herself.  She got confused and distracted easily, she wasn't as lively as usual, and just kind of distant.  Now don't get me wrong, she still has her mind.. we still gossiped a bit and made jokes.. but just not the same.  I saw her again last night b/c my dad (her son) is in town and staying at her house.. she seemed in better spirits yesterday too.  That def made me happy... any who.. I don't want to dwell too much on this because I know she wouldn't want that.. I'm anticipating Thursday and just hoping things go well..

In other news...

The date with Mr. Pisces.. did not happen.  Oddly enough I ended up going on a pseudo date with.. I want to call him an ex, but we never had official titles but lots of feelings.. umm lets call him Mr. Sensitive.. in order for you to fully understand our pseudo date you will have to know our not so great history.. I'm currently at work though so.. I'm going to publish this post.. and then tell that story it in a bit.. stay tuned...

bad news

Today is not a good day...

I just found out my (favorite) grandmother has a massive tumor growing on her brain... hopefully we'll find out if it is operable today.. Please keep her in your prayers..

Thanks...

**Miss Pisces**

5:35 AM

Why am I awake you ask??

Tonight (well really Sunday night) I had to work, and my coworkers and I went to this bar in downtown Decatur (a small city about 15 min east of ATL) named Zucca's. 

They recently started an "Industry Night" on Sundays (that is for people in the service industry btw) so we decided to check it out when we got off. Had a freakin blast!! I was drinking Bacardi Peach Red w/ Ginger Ale & a Splash of lime juice. 

I recommend that drink to all ladies who like a little sweet... come to think of it, I may start doing a drink recipe section on this site... being a bartender and all.. is that something you'd be interested in??  Any who... for whatever reason, this past weekend we (at my job) were fixated on "The Hustle" and learning how to do it.. after polling everyone at work, we youtube'd it and found this great video:

After mastering the moves at work... we took our newfound knowledge to the dance floor at Zucca's! You best believe we shut it down... hahahah...I did have to beg the DJ to play the song... but it was totally worth it. That was the first time we've all hung out before.. I had a great great time!

So back to the point.. I'm awake right now because I was catching up on the Blogger Coffee Shop Forum.. checking out some new blogs to add to my Google Reader.. and catching up on my shows... I've made it to Season 2 of Ghost Whisperer by the way...I have been a crazy insomniac lately.. my sleep schedule is shot to hell, and I can only hope to get things back in check soon...

** Sidebar** I'm off next Saturday and I told Mr. Pisces, so I'm thinking that may be the night of our date... well his exact response was "Then lets do it!" ...so provided he follows up in an appropriate manner, I guess we'll have a date.  Also, The Old Man surprised me at work last night.. he's still half way in denial.. but for every step he takes to acting better, he takes 2 backwards shortly following..hahah.. 

ok, I'm gonna try and sleep now.. or at the very least lay down.. 

Tata,

**Miss Pisces**

Afternoon thought...

They say you know its time to leave a city when you are no longer inspired when you see its skyline...(or something to that effect).  For the longest I had always said when I finished college I was moving out of Atlanta (I'm originally from NY so, ATL is not my home home) to somewhere else.. back up North maybe.  Then one day something switched.. I just started loving ATL.. not in the I rep Atlanta everywhere I go type love, but just the... yeah this is where I live!!  On my way to work every evening I get to see this amazing view of 2 skylines.. Buckhead and Atlanta.. at night when all the lights are on.. its simply gorgeous. I don't have the actual pictures but here is one that def does my city justice...  

There is also the spot on I-20 that has another amazing view.  I tried to get a pic of it last night and almost got off on an exit not paying attention =O lol.. so needless to say that didn't turn out sooo hot. I may still post it later though... for now, I'm off to work.

..updated...

here are some day time shots while on the way to work....

A

Buckhead.. from 400S

Atlanta.. from 85S

I'm gonna try and get some night time shots when I leave... what do you guys think of my city?

procrastination and acceptance..or lack thereof

... I have work to do. School work. like... MBA, Grad School, type School work. 

But what am I doing instead? Watching Season 1 of The Ghost Whisperer online...

I started doing some of my readings while at JOB #1 this morning.. but we were very busy and spider solitaire was challenging today.. sooo I think I got a good 2 paragraphs in.. yes!! Apparently I am in denial about the actual load of work I have to do for this week. Much like my most recent ex (the old man) is in denial about our break up.

Have you ever experienced that?

We were talking yesterday... actually it was more like early this morning.. and he kept referring to me as "his girl" and I had to keep reminding him .."no we're not together" him: "yeah I just can't accept that, I told you that you can't quit me." Um hi.. WHAT?!? 

Is that how it works now? If one party objects, the other person's decision/desires/needs are now null and void? I feel as though I should be flattered in a sense that he doesn't want to let me go.. but he's still not changing anything either...sooo.. it's kind of like.. hmm maybe you just don't want anyone else to have me.. it may not even really be about me at all.. HAHA.. yea right! lol.. well...idk.. On a "funner" note, that guy I dated back in 08.. we'll call him.. hmmm Mr. Pisces (b/c he's a Pisces like me).. well he called today to reiterate to me that he wants to take me on a date sooner than later.. I'm a bit ambiguous about it simply because we were kindof close to starting something real and then.. ehh that's another post.. but anywho.. I'm intrigued to see if anything will come of this.. After dating someone so much older than me, I'm slightly ashamed excited ready interested happy ready to see what it will be like to date someone my age.  

Audience Question(s)?? ++Have you ever dated someone w/a big age gap?++ How did it compare to dating someone closer to your age?++ Have you had someone reject your break up attempts?++ I'd love to hear about it!!

Thanks for stopping by.. Follow me if you like what you read! Stay up to date!! :-)

*Miss Pisces*

See that? I'm already doing better!

Today has already been a productive-ass day! Kindof. well if not productive at least triumphant!

Remember that "roomate" I had for like a week? Well she was really trying to not give me my house key back for like over a week and it was PISSING me the F**** off!So, after quite a few ignored phone calls and BBM's (Blackberry messenger for all my non BB-ers out there) she finally decides to answer me.  Needless to say I rushed over there as soon as my nails were done. Yes, beauty comes first.  I love keeping my nails looking good, and trust me they needed a fill-in BADLY!! So anywho, got the key w/o any drama Thank God.  I am not one to burn bridges with friends, but that is one friendship I do not mind ending.  Do you know I even got this girl heiffer a job as a server at the club I work, and she just didn't show up for her 3rd day of training! That's that bull shit. Now I think she is free-loading off someone else while her 2 kids are staying w/their grandfather. tsk tsk...

In other news, If you notice for the post prior to this I'm testing out this mobile blogging thing, although in reality I just don't think my life is THAT interesting that I need to be able to blog on the go.. but hey, you never know right?  Really I just wanted to post a pic of the NEW CAR. I finally got my tags today! How lame is it that I'm excited about tags? A 'lot yes I know. Really I'm happy because now I can get my Cruise Card for the toll plaza back! woop woop. But I am gonna try to post the pics sometime tonight, even if not through the mobile blog.. ohh apparently my service provider is not supported.. hmm are google and sprint beefing??

I have been trying to gain more readers via the "coffee shop" forum on blogger help.. I'm not sure if its working so.. if you'd be a dear and comment or follow and let me know your origin I'd be ever grateful..I'm kindof diggin the forum though simply because I get to find out about so many different blogs.  Now I'm not saying every blog I've found has been great or even interesting to me, but I wouldn't have found them otherwise.. ya know? I feel bad though because I read my blogs through Google Reader (which is AWESOME for keeping up w/multiple blogs btw) so a lot of the ones I am "following" per se, I'm not following on their " Follow Me" thing.. ehh oh well. At least they got a reader hit right? I'm just trying to get my readership up right now.. so if you like what you read.. please check back for future updates.

~Thanks for stopping by!~
*Miss Pisces*

Trying out this mobile blogging thing. Bear w/me. :)

Is anybody still there??

Hello! Happy 2009 and 2010! Yes, it has been THAT long since I have updated this blog.. am I ashamed? Yes, indeed. How has everyone's life been over the past year and a half? I noticed that almost all of the blogs I was following in 2008 have not been updated in about as long as this one.. great minds think alike perhaps?? haha... Ok time for some updates...(drumrollsssss)

-I MOVED!! I now live ALONE!!! in a great townhouse loft in Atlanta. (you have no clue how happy I am!)

-I now have 2 jobs! I got one of them back in 2008 I just forgot to blog it.. but I kind of both of them. Ok, hate is too strong... I don't really care for either of them.. yes, thats better. However, I will not make the mistake this time of quitting a job before having another one. no sir.

-The older beau and I broke up on Tuesday.. it was a ridiculous rollercoaster of a relationship for 1.5 years... the worst part is, I'm still giving him another month to get his act together and try and win me back.. (stupido yes I know)

-since my break up, I've already been asked on a date (by a guy I dated briefly in the beginning of '08 and who I also went to HS with [go figure] AND visited by an "ex" from college who drunkenly asked me to be his date to a mutual friend's wedding... there is hope for me yet.. haha

-I started graduate school!! I'm getting my MBA in Management. One of the smarter things I've done in the past year and change.

-I bought a new (used) car because my old car (my baby: Protehj (protege)) had run her course. It is a 98 Acura CL.. I love it in theory but not in reality because he (I just decided its gonna be a he..lol) is already giving my issues. The Check Engine light keeps coming back on.. and I think it has something to do with the transmission-esque area. Not the actual transmission but the Torque Converter thing.. I've been doing some research. So needless to say, that makes me QUITE unhappy. Once I get that fixed though, I'm hoping to really love him. hahah

-I had a roommate for a week.. trying to help a friend out, and she may have singlehandedly convinced me to never help another friend in need again.. haha.. (she WILL be getting a post dedicated to her soon)

... and there you have it. My life has had some definite excitements and improvements in the past... year.. but I'm still same old me.. same old man dramas... well not same same, but you get the drift.

Ok.. that's enough for tonight. I PROMISE to do better. I will try and blog at least twice a week for the next month.. how's that? :-)

~~Until next time,

MissPisces!

Where in the world is Carmen Sandiego? I mean.. MissPisces.

So its been what.. 5, 6 months? I know its been that long b/c thats about how long I've been dating my current beau/old man (he's about 20yrs older than me). HAHAh.. talk about your irony. It was like as soon as I rid myself of men, I got one. Well first I got a job working at this bar in the city... then I got persistently pursued by one of the owners.. then we went on a really really great date... then i got stuck.. for about a month and half we were in wonderful relationship bliss...then we fought every other day... then i broke up with him..for about 2 days.. then he broke up with me... for about a day.. then we were straight for about.. hmm 2 months or so... well probably longer.. then i got mad at him.. like really mad.. and i broke up with him on Sunday.. well I tried to rather. Ofcourse you know I went back to my good ole fail-safe.. the email. Whats funny is that at first, he didnt get the email on his blackberry... and like a dumbass I sent it again. lets say that was around like 3:30... He calls me around 6:30 like I can't believe you broke up with me in an email.. I start crying.. he's like are you sure you're not overreacting b/c of last night (he got drunk, missed our plans.. i got pissed)... I'm like its more than that..
him: Ive never been broken up with before, I thought that I was doing better, I'm so devastated....
me: I mean.. its just so much stuff..
him: you know if I let this ride I'm going to miss you..
me: huh? If you let this ride? what are you saying you would ignore my decision..
him: I don't want to break up..
me: oh.. ...
him: why are you crying? this was your decision...
me: I know.. but.. I don't know..
him: bout to walk into the club, can I call you when I walk out?..
me: sure..
Ok.. so there was def more to the convo than that.. but a couple hours later I end up riding with him to take his friend home... then he's like do you want to go to the drive in? (was where we ended up at on our first date) [no not for sex!] so we basically went on a date instead of breaking up.. we didnt really talk about much.. we saw Four Christmases (HILARITY!!!) and the end of Cadillac Records.. (Beyonce was a bit of a disappointment).. and I pretty much knew that my attempted break up wasnt going to stick. lol.. I wasnt going to be able to hold it up. So yeah by Tuesday we pretty much were back to normal.. we even had another date night which was very fun lol ;-).. I say even had another b/c he is like seriously a work-a-holic and has little free time most days.. like he def postponed at least 3 work things to do our date night.. which means that ofcourse I havent gotten to see him since Tuesday.. but we do have plans tomorrow night since I'm going out of town for Christmas on Sunday. anywho.. thats the brief update on me for now.. I'm def gonna make an effort to be more active on the blogging again.. until next time.

Finally! It has happened to me!

So! finally things have slowed down a bit! In EVERY way!

Mr. AK- came to this comedy show thing with me and some friends, took me to breakfast couple days later... then disappeared. The best part is.. I'm not distraught, upset, or sad about it. I figure its for the best. I dont feel like chasing him.. or anyone else for that matter. If he wants me he can put in some effort. I mean, I know I was the one who cut him off.. so thats why I contacted him again first.. but I think if he really wants me he would call or something so.. not to worried about it.

The HS Ex- Decided that its really just not there.. I mean I really wish it was b/c he is a great guy and I know he'd treat me wonderfully.. but I just can't do it.. be in a relationship with someone that I feel no spark with.. just can't make it happen.

Mr. Chef- another one that I wasn't really feeling it with.. things got really busy and hectic for a bit when i first started working at this restaurant... so I just slowly let things die down. Its for the best.. I just wasnt feelin it. I think he hit me up over the weekend on yahoo IM and was like "when are you coming back over?" um seriously? you think i'm going to drive 45 minutes to come see you again? HA

And that's it!!! I'm seriously seriously seriously out of fellows...and happy about it!! It took me a whole extra month to get rid of them all..but maybe now I can do me for a month FOR real! Get my business together and truly up and running! I want to get my business license by the end of September, liquor license by October, Insurance by November. I have my website up and running, now I need to advertise and get some clientele.

Sidenote- I'm rereading this book called "The Rules"..its about how to date to get a husband (LOL).. but it has some interesting pointers. I figured that once I start dating again, I'm gonna try them out. I mean what can it hurt? Obviously what Ive been doing for the past however many years isnt working.. or else I'd be boo'd the hell up right now right? yeah.. so I'll keep you posted on that. too

Where the hell am I?!

I know, I know, I've been really MIA... I do have some updatage for you.. but I'm exhausted.. I have started working at a bar in town and have not gotten home before 4 any night this week.

Mr. Chef has kind of died down.. well had pretty much.. i did go to a lounge with him and a couple of his friends last week.. it was fun, but i must face the fact that I'm just not that into him.. I can't force it.. shucks LOL

Started chillin with my ex from HS... he was really in love with me.. me, not so much but def care about him lots.. very mixed feelings about that situation right now... more details later.

Got free guest list for a comedy club in town and passed the mass text invite to Mr. AK.. I dont know I guess I kind of miss him.. but I dont really know in what way... we semi started a text convo but I have no service at work soo... perhaps we'll pick it back up tomorrow..

Randomly texted Texas...me: " Man, why couldnt you just act right" Him:"I did, you just kicked me to the curb." Me:" whatever, you know good and well you werent b/c if you were, I'd still be there... I just got tired of hoping.." Him: ....silence or the text never came through!!! LMAO!!!! Don't really know why I did that.. but whatever did it, he's still an idiot... and now I'm all together done.. No longer hoping he'll come around after getting the boot. :-( womp womp

Okay.. I need sleep I have a busy weekend.. will try to get more details for you on the next post. tata

Foolishness & Games

Hope everyone had a wonderful 4th, I had a pretty entertaining one. Initially made plans to do a drive in movie with friends... but didnt get enough response, and I didn't feel like spending $$ so.. that sort of fell through.. Mr. Chef calls and says he is going to cook something and kind of in a half ass way tells me i'm welcome.. umm thanks? lol.. He lives a solid 30 minutes away.. and spending the 4th boo'd up with someone I'm not even sure about, not my idea of a good time. I told him I'd let him know.. and started watching a movie. lol. Anywho, I ended up at a homegirl & her fiance's house.. and it actually turned out to be a good time.. we all got drunk, watched fireworks.. got inspired by the show, drove to Krogers (yes we know.. don't drink & drive, the sober one drove) bought fireworks and had our own show in the driveway cul-de-sac! HAHAH it really was a great time! I wish I could've gotten photos of our foolishness.. We almost set one girls car on fire!! (one dumb butt threw a sparkler inside the car while it was LIT!) So needless to say.. my 4th was quite the good time.

So.. last night (saturday) Mr. Chef mentions that he wants to go out to a lounge for some party.. and i guess you could say invites me... lol okay no he def asked me to go with him.. told him i'd have to see b/c I was supposed to be doing some pre-bridal shower festivities with my cousin. She says its looking like a no.. I wasn't sure if I really wanted to go out so I wait an hour or so to get back to Chef.. then all of a sudden he doesn't want to go anymore. I tell him he's wack, he apologizes profusely and then throws this lil bit in the text: I really like you and I am soo soo sorry.. ummmmmmmm I reply back: lol. HAHAHAH I mean what am I supposed to say to that anyway? Then he hits me up on yahoo IM .. so we chat for about an hour.. he kindof irked me a bit b/c he pulled this arrogant i know more about something than you do attitude on me.. major turn off.. so i just kept chumping him and letting him know how unimpressed I was.. then he all of a sudden got nervous and apologized and stopped! HA! I shouldn't be so tickled by the whole thing but.. I don't know, that is a huge pet peeve of mine. So then, he invites me to come to his house to drink.. Here's my thing.. granted I don't really invite anyone over to my house b/c I live with family (womp womp).. so I appreciate him trying to see me by inviting me over but who the hell wants to leave their own house to go sit in someone elses? Seriously? If he's really trying to... i don't know court me or what have you, does he really think sitting at his house and drinking.. is my idea of a good time, everytime? Am I being difficult? Reluctant Dreamer commented that I'm playing hard to get.. I don't think that's the case but.. I may be biased. lol. Either way, this month is supposed to be about me so .. its kind of like, I'm not trying to even let him get that attached to me.. kind of why I was so confused when he tells me how much he likes me.. How did that happen? I'm at a loss.. and he's a pretty nice guy too.. geez.. this is why I just want to take my month off.. I can't be bothered playing the dating game right now..

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Happy Independence Day to you... Happy Independence Month to me?

So.. I'm officially 3 days into my month of "solitude," independence, true singleness, WHATEVER! lol and boy, boy, boy, it has been quite a 3 days.. lol.. Last I wrote, the emails had been sent out to Mr. Texas & Mr. Arkansas... that day Mr. AK called.. I got nervous & just watched the phone ring.. wimp, yes I know.. My BFF convinced me to call him back- went straight to voicemail (Mr. AK, it's me, calling you back) few hours later I'm at Mr. Chef's house and AK calls back... obviously impolite to take that call so once again I watch it ring... left Chef's around midnight, return the call- no answer, no surprise, it was late. Didn't leave a message so I called back the next afternoon to no answer again. Voicemail thing messed up and I couldn't bear to call 3 times so... I let it go. No sign of AK since. I'll admit, I was kind of surprised... but then on the second thought I wasn't. He's a bit sensitive and a bit selfish... guys like him don't take dismissal very easily..despite the fact that I even gave him a little-Its not you its me.. telling him I just need to focus on me for a while... Anywho... Monday night Texas calls!!!! He'd already been deleted from the phone so I had to do a triple take when I saw the number pop up. Get this- somehow he makes it about him- Why don't you call me anymore? Is your phone broken? I know I havent been the best @ communication but why do u have to abuse me? Are we not friends? UMMMMMM I'm SORRY WHAT THE FLIP?!?! I was at such a loss for words that I started a conversation with someone else in the room just to make him get off the phone. He was supposed to call me back in an hour... its now been about 72 or so lol. Now that was a call that shocked me in general. I was expecting to hear from him in about a month or 2 months time... 1 week!!! I know he got the email but he didn't even mention it!! I think he thought he would just smooth things over like the last time... no sirreee! The most he got was another weeks worth of brain space in my head.. because I'm woman enough to admit that I have thought about that call at least once a day since then... not to mention the fiasco that was last weekend with him.. sooo he bought himself another week.

So July is here now... the 2 major players in my life are gone (for now- crossing fingers).. but I didn't realize that it wasn't the major players that were gonna be difficult to get rid of.. its the minor league & practice squad that are posing the biggest challenges... How do you completely cut someone off that a.) you havent really been emotionally or sexually involved with in so long... b.) have really developed a pseudo-friendship with despite the sexual/emotional past or c.) is so on again off again that... cutting them off any other way than just in your mind would make the relationship more real than it has ever been?! lol.. I'm hoping I can come up with a satisfactory answer by the 15th of July... lol In the meantime... I have to just continue to keep my distance and limit or eliminate any "boo" talk, feelings or displays of affection (from guys), dates, and meeting new fellas...

Update about Mr. Chef.. but that will have to come later, I am sleepy as all get out!