Where in the world is Carmen Sandiego? I mean.. MissPisces.

So its been what.. 5, 6 months? I know its been that long b/c thats about how long I've been dating my current beau/old man (he's about 20yrs older than me). HAHAh.. talk about your irony. It was like as soon as I rid myself of men, I got one. Well first I got a job working at this bar in the city... then I got persistently pursued by one of the owners.. then we went on a really really great date... then i got stuck.. for about a month and half we were in wonderful relationship bliss...then we fought every other day... then i broke up with him..for about 2 days.. then he broke up with me... for about a day.. then we were straight for about.. hmm 2 months or so... well probably longer.. then i got mad at him.. like really mad.. and i broke up with him on Sunday.. well I tried to rather. Ofcourse you know I went back to my good ole fail-safe.. the email. Whats funny is that at first, he didnt get the email on his blackberry... and like a dumbass I sent it again. lets say that was around like 3:30... He calls me around 6:30 like I can't believe you broke up with me in an email.. I start crying.. he's like are you sure you're not overreacting b/c of last night (he got drunk, missed our plans.. i got pissed)... I'm like its more than that..
him: Ive never been broken up with before, I thought that I was doing better, I'm so devastated....
me: I mean.. its just so much stuff..
him: you know if I let this ride I'm going to miss you..
me: huh? If you let this ride? what are you saying you would ignore my decision..
him: I don't want to break up..
me: oh.. ...
him: why are you crying? this was your decision...
me: I know.. but.. I don't know..
him: bout to walk into the club, can I call you when I walk out?..
me: sure..
Ok.. so there was def more to the convo than that.. but a couple hours later I end up riding with him to take his friend home... then he's like do you want to go to the drive in? (was where we ended up at on our first date) [no not for sex!] so we basically went on a date instead of breaking up.. we didnt really talk about much.. we saw Four Christmases (HILARITY!!!) and the end of Cadillac Records.. (Beyonce was a bit of a disappointment).. and I pretty much knew that my attempted break up wasnt going to stick. lol.. I wasnt going to be able to hold it up. So yeah by Tuesday we pretty much were back to normal.. we even had another date night which was very fun lol ;-).. I say even had another b/c he is like seriously a work-a-holic and has little free time most days.. like he def postponed at least 3 work things to do our date night.. which means that ofcourse I havent gotten to see him since Tuesday.. but we do have plans tomorrow night since I'm going out of town for Christmas on Sunday. anywho.. thats the brief update on me for now.. I'm def gonna make an effort to be more active on the blogging again.. until next time.

Finally! It has happened to me!

So! finally things have slowed down a bit! In EVERY way!

Mr. AK- came to this comedy show thing with me and some friends, took me to breakfast couple days later... then disappeared. The best part is.. I'm not distraught, upset, or sad about it. I figure its for the best. I dont feel like chasing him.. or anyone else for that matter. If he wants me he can put in some effort. I mean, I know I was the one who cut him off.. so thats why I contacted him again first.. but I think if he really wants me he would call or something so.. not to worried about it.

The HS Ex- Decided that its really just not there.. I mean I really wish it was b/c he is a great guy and I know he'd treat me wonderfully.. but I just can't do it.. be in a relationship with someone that I feel no spark with.. just can't make it happen.

Mr. Chef- another one that I wasn't really feeling it with.. things got really busy and hectic for a bit when i first started working at this restaurant... so I just slowly let things die down. Its for the best.. I just wasnt feelin it. I think he hit me up over the weekend on yahoo IM and was like "when are you coming back over?" um seriously? you think i'm going to drive 45 minutes to come see you again? HA

And that's it!!! I'm seriously seriously seriously out of fellows...and happy about it!! It took me a whole extra month to get rid of them all..but maybe now I can do me for a month FOR real! Get my business together and truly up and running! I want to get my business license by the end of September, liquor license by October, Insurance by November. I have my website up and running, now I need to advertise and get some clientele.

Sidenote- I'm rereading this book called "The Rules"..its about how to date to get a husband (LOL).. but it has some interesting pointers. I figured that once I start dating again, I'm gonna try them out. I mean what can it hurt? Obviously what Ive been doing for the past however many years isnt working.. or else I'd be boo'd the hell up right now right? yeah.. so I'll keep you posted on that. too

Where the hell am I?!

I know, I know, I've been really MIA... I do have some updatage for you.. but I'm exhausted.. I have started working at a bar in town and have not gotten home before 4 any night this week.

Mr. Chef has kind of died down.. well had pretty much.. i did go to a lounge with him and a couple of his friends last week.. it was fun, but i must face the fact that I'm just not that into him.. I can't force it.. shucks LOL

Started chillin with my ex from HS... he was really in love with me.. me, not so much but def care about him lots.. very mixed feelings about that situation right now... more details later.

Got free guest list for a comedy club in town and passed the mass text invite to Mr. AK.. I dont know I guess I kind of miss him.. but I dont really know in what way... we semi started a text convo but I have no service at work soo... perhaps we'll pick it back up tomorrow..

Randomly texted Texas...me: " Man, why couldnt you just act right" Him:"I did, you just kicked me to the curb." Me:" whatever, you know good and well you werent b/c if you were, I'd still be there... I just got tired of hoping.." Him: ....silence or the text never came through!!! LMAO!!!! Don't really know why I did that.. but whatever did it, he's still an idiot... and now I'm all together done.. No longer hoping he'll come around after getting the boot. :-( womp womp

Okay.. I need sleep I have a busy weekend.. will try to get more details for you on the next post. tata

Foolishness & Games

Hope everyone had a wonderful 4th, I had a pretty entertaining one. Initially made plans to do a drive in movie with friends... but didnt get enough response, and I didn't feel like spending $$ so.. that sort of fell through.. Mr. Chef calls and says he is going to cook something and kind of in a half ass way tells me i'm welcome.. umm thanks? lol.. He lives a solid 30 minutes away.. and spending the 4th boo'd up with someone I'm not even sure about, not my idea of a good time. I told him I'd let him know.. and started watching a movie. lol. Anywho, I ended up at a homegirl & her fiance's house.. and it actually turned out to be a good time.. we all got drunk, watched fireworks.. got inspired by the show, drove to Krogers (yes we know.. don't drink & drive, the sober one drove) bought fireworks and had our own show in the driveway cul-de-sac! HAHAH it really was a great time! I wish I could've gotten photos of our foolishness.. We almost set one girls car on fire!! (one dumb butt threw a sparkler inside the car while it was LIT!) So needless to say.. my 4th was quite the good time.

So.. last night (saturday) Mr. Chef mentions that he wants to go out to a lounge for some party.. and i guess you could say invites me... lol okay no he def asked me to go with him.. told him i'd have to see b/c I was supposed to be doing some pre-bridal shower festivities with my cousin. She says its looking like a no.. I wasn't sure if I really wanted to go out so I wait an hour or so to get back to Chef.. then all of a sudden he doesn't want to go anymore. I tell him he's wack, he apologizes profusely and then throws this lil bit in the text: I really like you and I am soo soo sorry.. ummmmmmmm I reply back: lol. HAHAHAH I mean what am I supposed to say to that anyway? Then he hits me up on yahoo IM .. so we chat for about an hour.. he kindof irked me a bit b/c he pulled this arrogant i know more about something than you do attitude on me.. major turn off.. so i just kept chumping him and letting him know how unimpressed I was.. then he all of a sudden got nervous and apologized and stopped! HA! I shouldn't be so tickled by the whole thing but.. I don't know, that is a huge pet peeve of mine. So then, he invites me to come to his house to drink.. Here's my thing.. granted I don't really invite anyone over to my house b/c I live with family (womp womp).. so I appreciate him trying to see me by inviting me over but who the hell wants to leave their own house to go sit in someone elses? Seriously? If he's really trying to... i don't know court me or what have you, does he really think sitting at his house and drinking.. is my idea of a good time, everytime? Am I being difficult? Reluctant Dreamer commented that I'm playing hard to get.. I don't think that's the case but.. I may be biased. lol. Either way, this month is supposed to be about me so .. its kind of like, I'm not trying to even let him get that attached to me.. kind of why I was so confused when he tells me how much he likes me.. How did that happen? I'm at a loss.. and he's a pretty nice guy too.. geez.. this is why I just want to take my month off.. I can't be bothered playing the dating game right now..

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