Disappointments & A Clean Slate

So.. yes, I know it has been quite some time since my last post. Interesting things have gone down. However, the thing foremost on my mind is my great disappointment in Mr. Texas. Okay, so you dont know who that is.. here's a little backstory:

We met at my old job. He was consulting there.. and it was really and truly one of those corny instant chemistry type situations. we got along great.. had great convos the whole nine. only dilemma was that he lives in Texas... hence the name. So most of the "relationship" was via phone b/c he came up in March and this weekend was his first weekend back since then. About the middle of May I decided to just let things go b/c I felt as though things had gotten to the point where I was making WAY too much of an effort to keep things up. I expressed my sentiments to him and he pretty much tried to flip the situation around.. I left the conversation feeling rather chumped off. And we actually never even finished the conversation b/c he didnt call me back... talk about your ass hole. so yes that is when things came to a halt. Fast forward 2 weeks and I get a text msg asking me if I still like him... I laughed and responded that he's still on the list.. but not very high up. he responds with an i'm at the airport call you when i land... right that must have been the longest flight on earth because he calls 3 days later, for 2 minutes. fast forward 2 more weeks... text message: Are you done with me? I want to see you next week, is that ok? I respond: that's fine, just call me. 2 days later I get: I can't wait to see you!... I'm baffled at this point b/c we have had practically no communication in about a month.. so I say to him: confused about why u want to see me, you dont even talk to me anymore... he replies: things have been crazy, lets do lunch and just talk.

Okay, so now that you're up to speed:

Fast forward to Saturday.. Phone call (SHOCKER!!): Are you in Atlanta? I'm on my way there and I want to see you sometime... Me: Ok, just call me. Have a safe flight.... Saturday night- I meet up with him to give something to him and we make plans for Sunday afternoon after church. Sunday I call him after church: Oh sorry babe we're gonna have to push back b/c i'm bout to eat with my boys... Me: wasnt it nice of you to make that decision on your own.. Him: Couldnt call you were in church Me: thats crap whatever. ... Fastforward 1 hr later, Me: You need to just decide that this is important and make the time to see me... Him: ok babe your right... Me: you have 30 minutes to figure it out.. (LOL I was frustrated at this point b/c he's fuckin up my schedule.. typically I dont do ultimatums)... 1 hour later... still nothing... 3 hours later... Him: Babe I know I suck, lets hang tomorrow... WTF?! he's gotta be kidding me! Turns out he was highly inebriated... not a good excuse for the blow off but... whatever. Today: HE makes plans for this evening.. Dinner and maybe the Braves game... so why is it 6:21 and I'm sitting here blogging instead of eating, driving, or cheering??? I'm at such a loss right now. I had already decided that after this week, I was going to end things with him.. but I was going to at least give him the opportunity to explain his piss poor behavior in the past... This is a damn shame.. Grown ass man (28yrs old) with his own business and a son, over here actin like hes still an undergrad football player! Plain old disappointment. Ugh..

Over the past week I have been thinking about letting all the guys in my life go right now... He's just making this that much easier to do. I really would like to just start over fresh with a clean slate. No residual past feelings to mess up anything new. Ideally, I want to just take a month for myself... just focus on me and the business I'm starting (another day's blog)... But there is a new guy.. we'll call him Mr. Chef... he wants to hang out tomorrow.. Maybe he can be a part of the clean slate?? Thoughts? Comments on Mr. Texas? Insight to share??